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    I’ve been slacking off a lot lately. I skip classes and work. I haven’t been doing food journals or even weighing in. I spent about 2 months really sticking to my diet and now that I have been cheating quite a bit I’ve noticed how much of an impact food has on my mood and energy levels. I haven’t been sleeping as well, I’m not motivated which leads to massive amounts of procrastination and I rather stay home than do anything else.

Sorry to my buddies that I have been neglecting, I haven’t forgotten about you.

I’m feeling much better today. I took a trip out to the farm and spent about 6 hours in the sun planting  herbs and weeding the existing plots. I haven’t been to the beach in months, so regardless of how I feel tomorrow; I’m going.

Yesterday my roommate and I went to the grocery store.  She convinced me to make chocolate chip cookies for her (she doesn’t cook). I thought that I could bake cookies for her and some of our friends and not eat any (or maybe just one). Um, apparently not.

Taking the advice of a fellow buddyslimmer, I’ve decided to make my goals for this month public, so I have some accountability to someone other than myself (Thanks Don).

I will go to the gym at least 5 times a week.

I will not let my social life side track my diet.

I will not skip meals.

I will fill out my food journal every day

I  will lose 20 pounds this month.

So I normally weigh myself compulsively, every day or multiple times a day. I often get discouraged when the scale goes up a pound or two throughout the course of the day even if I’m down overall. This week I decided that I would not weight myself at all until Saturday morning. So here I am Friday night and I just can’t take it anymore. I weighed myself and much to my surprise I lost 50 pounds in one week. That’s right, you gueesed it, my scale is broken   Is that a sign or something?

I’ve been doing really well with sticking to my plan, I have been eating smaller meals spread evenly through out the day, eating breakfast every day, and taking vitamins. Going to the gym has been kind of hit or miss, but some is better than none.

The last few days I have been feeling exhausted starting around 5-6pm. Sometimes it lasts a little while and I get a burst of energy or I just give in and go to bed early (around 8-9). I can’t figure out what is causing this.

Today I moved back to the dorms. I got a lot of exercise hauling my stuff upstairs and then I walked all around the city running errands, about 2.5 miles in all. Tomorrow is my first day back at the gym after a 3 month hiatus. I’m trying to round up some friends to go with but it seems that it might be a challenge to do so. I am determined to go, even if it means going it alone.

I am expecting to meet my new roommate soon. I have no idea who it will be. I’m feeling a little nervous living with a complete stranger this year but hopefully I’ll luck out and get someone I am compatible with.

School starts Monday and I am committed to eating healthier this school year. Generally, I get so wrapped up in whats going on at school and work that I forget to plan meals or take time to do things like eat breakfast. The first few weeks are usually the easiest but at some point things start to get away from me and I find myself eating junk food because its cheap and easy. Before I know it the school year is over and I’m in the same place I started, or a little worse.

I’m lucky enough to be going to school in Hawaii, this will be my last year before I move back to Seattle, but I have found that I am unable to, or very reluctant to, do many of things I would like to because of my weight. I would really like to make the best of this last year and not find myself regretting what I did not get to do at the end of this school year.

I would appreciate any tips on getting my routine down. I often do not eat breakfast and often eat right before bed. I realize that this will need to change. I just have a really hard time being organized enough in the morning to make time to eat.